[...end of excerpt. transmission complete. about 130 pages later, i came to a conclusion of passionate ambivalence. i waffled, which is what academic Theory and Rhetoric allow one to do. that is, theory is just another technology of perception. i've included my thesis here because this piece constitutes my most intense intellectual exercise to date. but the writing feels fabricated, gleening validation from reputable quotes. i look back on it with a kind condescension, fondly as i would a childhood picture of me at age 5, squinting in the sun, wearing a frilly white sundress. but for the future i intend to transgress the passivity of theory to real experience and more immediate expression...writing about technology, no less.]